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Link Details for: | stolen time |
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| Link ID# | 21 |
| Link URL | http:// |
| Submited By | kenny llanto |
| Added On | Wed_Oct__1__2003 |
Description:
Its takes a long time for me to figure it out on what’s it all about. Cherished moments were in mid air. Recapturing thoughts of you, which I merely forgot. And I never figure it out. I don’t know anything about the things you were saying. I’m really confused then. And never figure it out. I can’t remember on how my life used to be. Still I don’t have any idea about the things you said to me on how we used to be. Liking each other everyday? Walking hands to hands together? And I kissed you all along? Have I done this to you on a date for two…? My head was in pain. You’re driving me insane…. I can’t remember. But you didn’t surrender. I felt nothing from your hug, which meant everything? Then you started crying. Still I can’t figure it out. Not knowing why I was on my feet as I faced the window, watch the falling leaves as it enters autumn… I caressed the pane as if it was telling me something… the scene became clear. Twigs and branches became brighter as the day reaches dawn. And as if it was telling me not to forget him as he sets. You hugged me from behind… I felt secured for a moment… as the time unwinds. I’ll never get to figure out what is between you and I. Its seems that I’ve shared everything about myself with you… Then you leave… I felt so alone in this four-cornered room. There’s no news from you anymore. I was never been this quiet when you were with me. But now I was all by myself. I am more than a deaf. Still I can’t figure it out. They drove me home from a hospice were I was. Everybody was in great tears and I don’t know why? Months passed, still no words from you. Even a single phone call was out of reach… I looked for you. I made a fool out of myself looking for a woman who has no name. Still I’m asking why am I looking for you? And I still can figure it out. I felt so empty. How you meant to me? I can’t figure it out. I wonder how time had faded… everyday I waited for you. Sited on the porch waiting for you till I bleed in pain in missing you. They said I wasn’t doing okay. I don’t know how my life could be so dreary. Is this the thing why you leave me so soon? I can’t figure out then. It’s been a long time I’ve seen you again in the same room, at the same situation. Again you kept on telling me things. Still I can’t figure it out. The doctor said I’m not feeling well. I have to lie down and rest. When you came my mind was put on a test. Remembering you was hard to do. Had anyone loved me like the way you do? And still cant figure out the love you gave me without a doubt… every morning I wakeup, flowers and cards on my side, with you on my bed sipping a cup of coffee, smiling and caressing my hair with your gentle touch its like whispering me to wakeup Ken… and will do the same things again like the way it used to be before… and I cant figure out… Still caressing me, watching every angle of my face, and it seems like you are memorizing each details. I like it when you do it to me more often, its like I’ve felt it before… I think I was spoiled over you. How stupid of me, I can’t figure out. Spoiled from the love you gave me over these years as you came by and by to visit me. The more I’m eager to replenish my memory of you so that I can give you the love you want from the start or did I have given it to you before the air turns too blue. I’m keep on thinking to figure out… Pages of years on the wall starts to break up, seasons were torn apart nothings change from me I’m all messed-up upon you… mixed-up on my feeling that sprung from chaotic situation. From time to time I felt weak but you were cuddling me from nowhere… I can’t figure out. There’s so much attention you have given me everyday, we had smooth-talk unto the last hour of the day. Telling me things on how we used to be every moment I gave flowers at your doorstep. There I stood and waited patiently for you reach and take my hand trust that love will pull you through… I was totally amazed of things you told was that the way I have loved you? I was in box and can’t figure out… Indeed loving you wasn’t hard to do… but I cant remember a thing when I was with you… then you started giggling about the time we used to teased each other on our early childhood I was listening with you lying by my side like a piece of wood. How we dare each other and later come up with jealousy with one another. Times we stripped naked in a bath. Times of letting go of one another but found loving each other. Times you have cried for me when I found another. Which keep me on thinking… did I cried for you? Yes times before and then was an open book for us. And I cant figure out… so don’t loose faith but always remember I’ll never forget nor I will ever. And I can’t figure out… We have stood against time as I lay here and think of you. The memories from the moment I opened my eyes was very fresh, you came into my life at a time I took my second breath… I can’t figure out… I still get lost in your eyes… I saw round and long flickering white lights. They seem running, no dripping down from my sight. Then there was an ignition of great immense brightness I can hardly see a thing from above. What’s happening? I can’t figure out… As I took my breath… thoughts of you meddle on my mind, whispering to let go… Electric shocks brought me to reality, your face was the first I’ve seen… shocked for a moment… it felt like that the time had stopped for both of us… all about the thing you’ve said to me the things we used to be… the way we like each others temperament… our shared secrets and fantasies… to you I deeply apologize. How damn I am to can’t figure out… that I loved you for my entire life… I can’t figure out I want you to hear every word, and know its me who’s speaking, I want to make sure its me you heard… because it’s my heart you’re keeping. As the sun slowly sets, the day turns to night, you’re in my arms holding you tight and I don’t want to let you go out of sight. I hated the time that was stolen from us after the mishap that had happened thoughts of you were the last minute I utter before I got block-out. Now I knew the reason why are you acting the way you do now and then… I wished I can turned back the hands of time to complete every seconds it take just to be with you once again. And I’ll came at your doorway with bunch of roses because I already heard I do… I really do… and that day I can’t stop loving you. This round brass on my finger… to you I bestowed everything loving you forever till infinity… This bleeding pain in my heart, slowly slips away, I’ll love you… my angel, until my dying day… as you brought flowers on my stone name I want you to smile because I figured out… As I go... I’ll wait for you at the golden gate so I can hold you again and commemorate the stolen time from us and let you know I love you… and I will never let go… (09-13-03)- (09-14-03) 12:59 MN |
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