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Link Details for: | Still Not Over |
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| Link ID# | 98 |
| Link URL | http:// |
| Submited By | Carrie Meckler |
| Added On | Tue_Mar_30__2004 |
Description:
Still Not Over Carrie Meckler Three years later they still keep quiet. My parents need to get over this. They both work out of the home now. My mom was a full time lawyer. My father was an accountant. They made some good money if you ask me. My mom and I had a great relationship. We would go to dinner once a week with my sister, and then once alone. She would also go alone with Krista once a week. My dad and I had an okay relationship. He loved Krista though. He liked her more than me I can defiantly say. My mom didn’t pick favorites, like he did. But that was then, and it’s different now. I receive one gift on Christmas and a card for my birthday. Yes, my life is great, not. People would think I am poor, well my family. Really, I am not. Krista, she was a great sister, but they need to get over this. Therapy seems not to work. My grades in school are high-quality, and I have a social existence, but not them. My parents just can’t get over the fact that Krista will never be back. They sit and don’t talk, and don’t watch TV. I am astonished they are not divorced. One thing is for sure, they have the exact same emotion about this. They eat a few meals a week, and go to the grocery store once in three months. I eat at school some days, off of my friend’s plates. I haven’t been in a vehicle for two years, it’s crazy. I have seen my parents hug twice this year. I wish this would all stop. I was sad the first two months, but I have moved on. I talk to my friends about it. They say I can move in with them. I couldn’t do that though. They worry about me, and say to get the heck out of my house. So what are my other options to get out of this mute hole? I never thought this would be like this. Krista had problems, and now I suffer from problems. My parents loved her to death, and I did as well. Krista had tribulations with her friends and she couldn’t take it anymore. I wonder how my parents would react if I did the same thing. I wouldn’t do it in a bathtub though. That’s too scary. Thursday I had therapy. Yes, I pay for it from my birthday money from my grandparents from all these years. I need help though to figure this one out. I have been going for about two months. She says tell your parents how you feel. She is a nice lady, but doesn’t give the best guidance. She tells me suggestions that I have previously tried hundreds of times. But I try yet again. So I notify them and they cry Kara your sister died, how do you expect us to act? The number arrives on the television screen. I call the number and they come pick me up at my house. Did I have doubts? Yes, I was petrified out of my mind. I knew I was going to a pleasant place, but I still thought my parents would hate me. But really they kind of already did, they didn’t talk to me. I’ll remember forever the look on my parents faces, the channel I was watching, and the corporation that I called. Today I sit at this orphanage. I have a few friends. Do I miss them? Yes, but here is better. My parents haven’t visited me yet. I doubt they will. I think I made the right decision. I will miss my old life, but hope the new is better. I just want to start over. I don’t know if I will eventually go to a foster home, but I need a new life. I was unhappy and emotionally hurt. I was abused emotionally some would say. My parents didn’t notice though. I think I learned during this period more things than I know. A death of a family member can really damage the whole family. I wish I would have talked to Krista more, and figured out what she was going through. I was ignorant and didn’t care about her problems. My parents were too hectic with work. And currently they don’t even go. I begin school tomorrow. Wish me luck. Thanks |
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